Stuck in between

Edit: This post moved to http://www.theonlinerant.com/2007/10/29/stuck-in-between/

I've been a little depressed lately. And the reason is that I feel stuck. My entire life feels like it is stuck in between being a mature adult, and being an immature young adult who is still trying to find out what to do with his life. And being stuck in between, I don't feel like I can really relate to the people around me who are in one phase or another.

On one side, I have my mature friends. The people I graduated from college with. I don't really feel like they are more mature than me, but at the same time I do. The problem is that they are all in a different place in their lives than I am. Most of them are married and well established in their careers. A lot of them even have multiple kids. Whereas I'm not married, and I don't feel all that well established in my career. While they are all building their families and advancing in their chosen careers, I'm still single and still at the bottom of my chosen career path. And as we all get older, I find that I have less and less in common with most of them.

On the other side I have my relatively immature friends. They are mostly younger than me, and haven't reached the point where they are really working on their future. Mostly they are single and for the most part are still in college. They live from paycheck to paycheck and don't really worry too much about what they are going to do with their lives. They aren't really immature, they just haven't moved past the college phase yet. And the truth is that I really don't relate to them either. Because I am past the college phase.

My problem is that I'm stuck in between. I'm past the friends who are still in school and are still finding out who they are, but I'm behind the ones who are out their building their lives. And I fell like I'm stuck. I'm too old to go back, but I somehow can't go forward either. It's like my life is in a permanent holding pattern. Since I graduated from college, about 4 years ago, almost nothing has changed in my life. Which is depressing. Mainly because I have no idea what I did wrong to be left behind, and I find I have less and less in common with everyone around me. So, I'm feeling a little down right now.